The End Of Summer

Hey Guys x

*Throughout this post, I use the term 'year' a lot. What I mean is the academic year, which begins in September and finishes in June/July in the UK, not an actual new year*

I know I don't have to tell you, summer is basically officially over.

And I feel weird. I don't know how to feel.

This summer has meant a lot of things for me. Most importantly, it's meant the transition from college to university.

Or, more generally, the transition from teenager to supposed-to-be-an adult.

And it's weird.

I feel... different.

In a way, I feel like everything's changed. And it's true, my friends and I are moving on. Never again will we walk through out school gates and greet each other or walk home from school together.

Now it's up to us to make sure that we keep in contact with each other... school no longer plays a part in pushing us together beyond our control.

And I'm ok with that, because this is the time when we know which friendships are true ones, and I know fully who I will be keeping in contact with in the future, because they're the people that I still talk to and plan days out with now.

We are the makers of our own destiny - as cheesy as that sounds.

And I know that this next year is a big one for a lot of you guys too, whether you're going to college/uni for the first time, or venturing out into the world alone, completely unsure of what you're going to do next.

It's scary. I've said in so many posts how scary it is, to venture into the unknown, and no matter how many times I say it, it doesn't get less scary.

But, forgetting that, for the last few days I've been in a constant state of nostalgia.

I keep remembering things that happened in the past, even as recently as the beginning of summer, and wishing for that time back. I've never had that before.

In my life, my philosophy has always been, to quote Queen Elsa, the past is in the past. I never knowingly think about the past because it just makes me feel, in short, sick. I'm the most clumsy, awkward, weird person I know, and unfortunately, a lot of the people that I've spent the last 7 years with know that too. Resulting in me wanting to erase most memories of the past.

However, I kind of don't want this summer to end. I don't want to step out into the real world and make real-world decisions and be a grown-up, I'm not ready!

And yet, part of me feels like I am. I'm ready to leave this stage of my life behind and move on. I'm ready to make new friends and to make important decisions and to control who I keep closest to me and who I see. I'm ready to be closer to the people that move to different parts of the country than people who stay close to me geographically. I'm ready to make a name for myself.

I'm ready for the end of summer. I'm ready for the autumn, for the leaves to change and the rain to come.

Because this is one of the only times when a new year will actually mean a new me, and I cannot freaking wait!

And there's nothing to stop you from making this year the best you've ever had!

So go out and live the way you want to live, do the things you want to do. There's never a better time than right now to start making the year yours. All you have to do is try!

Thank you for reading

Comment below your predictions for yourself this coming year!

Keep Smiling - Lou xx