The End Of Summer



Hey Guys x

*Throughout this post, I use the term 'year' a lot. What I mean is the academic year, which begins in September and finishes in June/July in the UK, not an actual new year*

I know I don't have to tell you, summer is basically officially over.

And I feel weird. I don't know how to feel.

This summer has meant a lot of things for me. Most importantly, it's meant the transition from college to university.

Or, more generally, the transition from teenager to supposed-to-be-an adult.

And it's weird.

I feel... different.

In a way, I feel like everything's changed. And it's true, my friends and I are moving on. Never again will we walk through out school gates and greet each other or walk home from school together.

Now it's up to us to make sure that we keep in contact with each other... school no longer plays a part in pushing us together beyond our control.

And I'm ok with that, because this is the time when we know which friendships are true ones, and I know fully who I will be keeping in contact with in the future, because they're the people that I still talk to and plan days out with now.

We are the makers of our own destiny - as cheesy as that sounds.

And I know that this next year is a big one for a lot of you guys too, whether you're going to college/uni for the first time, or venturing out into the world alone, completely unsure of what you're going to do next.

It's scary. I've said in so many posts how scary it is, to venture into the unknown, and no matter how many times I say it, it doesn't get less scary.

But, forgetting that, for the last few days I've been in a constant state of nostalgia.

I keep remembering things that happened in the past, even as recently as the beginning of summer, and wishing for that time back. I've never had that before.

In my life, my philosophy has always been, to quote Queen Elsa, the past is in the past. I never knowingly think about the past because it just makes me feel, in short, sick. I'm the most clumsy, awkward, weird person I know, and unfortunately, a lot of the people that I've spent the last 7 years with know that too. Resulting in me wanting to erase most memories of the past.

However, I kind of don't want this summer to end. I don't want to step out into the real world and make real-world decisions and be a grown-up, I'm not ready!

And yet, part of me feels like I am. I'm ready to leave this stage of my life behind and move on. I'm ready to make new friends and to make important decisions and to control who I keep closest to me and who I see. I'm ready to be closer to the people that move to different parts of the country than people who stay close to me geographically. I'm ready to make a name for myself.

I'm ready for the end of summer. I'm ready for the autumn, for the leaves to change and the rain to come.

Because this is one of the only times when a new year will actually mean a new me, and I cannot freaking wait!

And there's nothing to stop you from making this year the best you've ever had!

So go out and live the way you want to live, do the things you want to do. There's never a better time than right now to start making the year yours. All you have to do is try!

Thank you for reading

Comment below your predictions for yourself this coming year!

Keep Smiling - Lou xx

Comments

  1. I'm uber scared but excited for this new year! I'm going into Year 10 and am starting my GCSEs (I've been terrified of them since Year Seven). I hope that you have the best year and love every second of it! :)

    Peace xo
    www.waitwhatok.blogspot.com

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    1. You're going to have an amazing year! Thank you xx

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  2. P.S I just saw that you hit over 30K Pageviews!! :) CONGRATS XO. You deserve them all!

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  3. This is a great post. Xx

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  4. great post :D

    keep up the good work :D

    https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4GgEM_OjPUA would love a comment

    Jade

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  5. I am terrified for the new school year but I've decided it'll be a good one. Usually that doesn't convince me but I'll try my best to make it the best year possible. Good luck in the new year, I'm confident you'll do great x

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  6. Good luck! I hope it all goes well for you Xx

    Daizy
    http://brightdreamerz.blogspot.co.uk/

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  7. Good luck! I hope it all goes well for you Xx

    Daizy
    http://brightdreamerz.blogspot.co.uk/

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  8. First off, Love the new background :D <3
    The transition from college to uni can be very scary but it also comes with a lot of great thing. One of those being one of the things you mentioned which was knowing who your real friends are, you also gain independence (wether you gain it all at once of slowly start to gain it), and you start to find yourself in little ways. I really hope you enjoy this new chapter of your life :)
    On the other hand I'm so so relieved that summer is starting to come to an end because I have had enough of the hot weather! I cannot take another humid and blazing hot day. I need fresh winds haha

    http://crystallizeddaisies.blogspot.com

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    1. Thank you! I completely agree with you xx

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  9. Such a good post - starting uni felt so weird for me but actually I don't feel much more grown up now than I did then! Hope you have an amazing time, I wish I could start uni all over again because it's SO much fun, have a lovely year! xx

    http://keytomysparkle.blogspot.co.uk/

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