Update | Not Feeling Great

Hey Guys x

I'm the queen of avoidance. Rather than deal with my problems, I avoid them.

Which is why, you may or may not have noticed that I haven't blogged much lately, or been on social media much or anything like that.

I've not been in a good place. It's weird that this is so much easier to write than it is to say out loud to actual people, which is why I haven't.

And I'm still not in a good place, emotionally. And a part of that really affects my creativity.

But I have to be completely honest - I have no motivation or inspiration to blog. And last Friday, and this Monday and Wednesday, I've literally forgotten, and only remembered when it was too late to write anything, and that's not like me.

I'm feeling a bit hopeless, and I don't really know what to do, which sucks.

To put it bluntly, I go through periods of feeling OK, feeling quite good, and feeling like shit, and the 'feeling like shit' option has been with me for the last week or so, which makes it hard to blog. Especially when I don't really feel passionate about anything anymore.

I'm really sorry that this isn't a usual happy and passionate post, but I couldn't miss another day of blogging, and I also couldn't find something random to talk about and pretend that I really cared when I probably wouldn't have.

I guess another reason that I haven't spoken about this sooner is because I don't have an answer to the question 'why do you feel like this?', I don't know why I feel this way. Obviously I wish I did, but I don't.

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OK, it's the next day and I've been to uni twice. I can't even finish a blog post in a day, how sad is that!

Anyway, I just had a pretty minuscule shitty experience that I think I'll end the blog post with, as it sums up my thoughts and feelings throughout the last week.

I was sitting in a seminar. I had three girls to my right, two to my left, who are friends. Three guys sat across from me. As expected, the tutor said to get into pairs and one three. So, I assumed the guys would be in a three and the girls would be together in pairs. However, both girls either side of me turned around to speak to the people next to them. I've never felt more alone and didn't know what to do, so I kept my head down and pretended to write - for about 20 minutes. And all I wanted was to fall down  hole and live there.

And this is how I've been feeling lately, which is why it's been a bit hard for me to post.

Anyway, I'm going to see 'Room' with a friend tonight which should be exciting, so I'll leave this here (I'll also be posting this earlier than usual as the film starts at half 4). You can expect the review of 'Room' the next time I post!

I'll try to post as much as I can.

Thank you for reading, and , in advance, for understanding.

Keep Smiling - Lou xx

Comments

  1. I have just joined another friend group and one of my friends may be leaving and I've never felt more out of it in my life. I don't want to be clingy to the people in the group that I like, but I can sympathise with you x
    It's hard but if you ever need to talk, please don't hesitate to say (I know it's difficult but I honestly feel the same)
    Have a good day x
    Chloe ♡

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    1. I'm really sorry about your friendship group, I hope things get better soon! Thank you xx

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  2. Really sorry to hear you feel shitty- I get like that a lot too. I hope you feel better soon <3
    Elise xxx

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  3. i feel similar shittyness right now so i can commiserate. sigh.. life is determined to force us to get on a rollercoaster it seems

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    1. I hope things get better for you soon xx

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  4. I hope you're feeling better soon. I wish there was something more I could say but I just hope you can go back to feeling okay x

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    1. That's all you need to say. Thank you so much xx

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  5. Hey, I hope you start to feel better, but don't worry we all have those weeks where nothing quite fits and we don't know why, remember you can always email me x

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